Oh, hello! It's Friday and it feels Friday-y to me in that I'm in a great mood and looking forward to the weekend (even though I work 11-3 tomorrow) because I've got a Vogue waiting for me at home (with Sienna Miller on the cover! her Alfie character, Nikki, is my favorite absolute number one style icon) and a 30th birthday party tomorrow evening at a French bistro in DC AND the Globes/GIRLS is on Sunday night! Listen - save for the birthday party - now that I've written all that out it sounds pretty lame and not that exciting but I'm feeling it.
Anyway, I started The Woman Upstairs by Claire Messud on Tuesday and just finished it this afternoon before I came into the shop. It made me feel uncomfortable, mostly. It's the story of Nora, an elementary school teacher in her late 30s who hasn't really LIVED her LIFE in any sort of daring or fulfilling way and she's real pissed about it. When this new kid comes into her class, she becomes obsessed with him and his mom and dad. The family befriends her, in a way, and it changes her life.
She's harmless, a mouse really - raging on the inside maybe but with no real power to translate that to her outer life. BUT! Even still, her fluid and borderline inappropriate love of each of the family members isn't sweet or sad or understandable really....it's just kinda unsettling. She's only in her late 30s but I kept picturing her about 30 years older, by the way she spoke of herself and the life she led. That was distracting. It would be easy to call her pathetic, and sad and a whiny bore (cause she was all those things) but Messud wrote her as a real, flawed, complex woman who was connected with her feelings and was hopeful in spite of herself in a relatable way. It kept my attention and me interested in Nora....it's just that I didn't much like her. What am I trying to say? It was an engaging, well written story and I am glad I read it but it's not a book you leave wishing you could stay with the characters longer or wondering what happened in their lives after the writing stopped.
As for the Whole30 - we're closing in on Day 5 now and I'm feeling pretty great! Not particularly different, I'd say, but good. Actuallyyyyy that's not true. I feel different (good!)(and proud of myself!) because I haven't had any caffeine this week! My morning breakfast has been an apple with almond butter, herbal tea and a green juice -- I've cut my usual cup of iced coffee out since I can't doctor it up with cream and sugar (black coffee, don't talk to me). I'll say today I even got out of bed early because I was so excited about the idea of my breakfast! I think I'm going to do a bigger post on my lunches/dinners later next week because they've been so great and easy. The hardest part of all this so far is the time it takes to make so much food all the time. My only real cravings have been lattes, a glass of wine and chocolate....and that's been brief and not horribly excruciating. Only a little excruciating.